'How Was Your Day?' Philosophy



On those days that I have no class, no groceries to shop, no effort to dress up and go out, I spend all day at home. I speak to no friends, I see no neighbours. Well then when I see some people, they ask:"What do you usually do in your free time?". Where should I begin? I just can't say that I stay home and do nothing. Because when I do nothing I do everything.



I think of my grandmothers, the one who gave me fruits when I said I needed to go home; and the one who said "I love zu" when I said I was going to sleep. I do research on coffee, the history of tea, and how to make nitro cold brew. I think about my dad and his dreams that he told me. Then I cry because I miss him so much. Now I can only meet him in my dreams. I watch a video of an ASMR cooking channel and think the world is interesting but so boring. I clean up the coffee mug that has been on my bed head for days. I look out to see what people are wearing - is it hot or is it cool. "Oh I saw this couple before", I think. Then I think about death, not suicidal thought, but just death. I'm curious to know what it feels like, but I'll just wait. I think of what I should cook for the following day. I get worried about my future - will I get a job? Will I be able to afford a car? Will I be able to have good coffee every morning? I do research on 'advertising jobs in Australia'. I am upset when I think about social issues and even more upset at people who have no social responsibilities. Thinking about myself, way too many responsibilities that I need to take. Then I make myself the third cup of coffee of the day. I am depressed about life for half an hour. I help myself to get out of the depression by decorating my own apartment in my head with those products that I saw in furniture stores and telling me that's one of the goals in life. Then I swear to myself for the very billionth time that I will never pick my nails again before putting a band-aid on a bleeding finger.

You see, my head is a universe. It consists of more than planets and asteroids than a regular solar system does. What I do in a day all happen in this universe - my head. On some days, there are solar eclipses, some lunar eclipses, and someday there are 'big bang explosions'. And when someone asks: "what do you do in your free time?" or "how was your day?", where should I begin?




4 comments:

  1. you're my favourite philosopher.

    xx

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  2. Beautiful blog post! Thanks for sharing. :)

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  3. These are all questions I ask myself! Loved this....

    xxAmanda
    http://www.poiseinwings.com/

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  4. Lovely post, well written!

    x
    StephC

    http://sstephcc.blogspot.com/

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